10 Days

I am on my tenth smoke free day. The cravings have decreased in intensity but not in frequency. I have more triggers than I realized, but that is to be expected I suppose. I have been a smoker for more time than I have not been a smoker and there are many things that remind me of smoking and give me the urge to smoke. Success has provided great positive reinforcement and motivation though. Each day does get easier. I feel my success at this point relies on me remembering to take Zyban. If I forget to take the medicine in the morning, my urges to smoke are more difficult to control. I only have two more months on the Zyban and then I am on my own. I think by that time I will be okay.

For those who are trying to quit smoking too, I really appreciate your encouragement and wish you success as well. Having a plan this time around has really helped me. A plan, coffee and some mild anti-depressants are all you really need to succeed in any endeavor right?

On an unrelated note I am reading Nicholas Baker's The Anthologist. So far I dig the way this dude writes. His style reminds me of Chuck Palahniuk if Chuck had manners and wrote about poetry and heartbreak instead of bodily fluids and sexual depravity. Finding a good new book reminds me of why I decided an English degree was worth 4 years of my life and a monthly student loan payment.

My cup is almost empty and a little too cold for my taste which means it's time for a refill. With that, I will go until next time.