Days like These

The good news is that at no time in the last 38 days have a found it necessary to use tobacco or nicotine in any form.

It's another Sunday morning and I will have the day to myself. Christina took an upgrade Team Leader position that was supposed to end on May 8^th but was extended. For the next 7 weeks she will be working a shift only a sadist could have created. She is working 1015 – 2100 with Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday as her weekend. Yes that means that every day is completely filled with work and that her off days happen in the middle of my work week. I don't mind having one day off that is different; I am pretty good at keeping myself out of trouble for one day each week. I can do things that make me feel like not only a self sufficient but also a productive member of society. For instance I can pay bills, clean house, take old clothes to Goodwill, wash my truck, and other busy work.

But if you give me too much free time I will do things that would probably be considered obsessive and/or compulsive like going to the movies each day after work, watching baseball nonstop including watching the previous day's games until the current day's games start, searching the internet for random quotes, song lyrics, esoteric trivia or whatever else pops into my head, checking Amazon half a dozen times to see if there are any good deals, and obsessing over my fantasy baseball team. I should do something productive with my time such as ride my bike or jog or finally let Christina put up her Bowflex so I can work out. I could read more. I could always read more. I am at least two lifetimes behind on my reading list. I could devote that two hours a day to writing that I have always promised myself I would. Instead, I stay conflicted between all the things I would like to do and the few things I actually do as the days pass faster than the hours, or so it seems. I am not quite this unfocused, manic or morose when Christina is here. She helps me keep on an even keel most of the time.

I hope I haven't harshed anyone's mellow. I am trying some self motivation here. I need more coffee right now. Then I will get this show rolling. I am not sure where though.